Ease The Pain...

(I wrote this a couple years back while going through a bad depressive state)


13 years of tough luck
13 years a hard road
ups and downs like no one knows
drowned in the beer
living a life full of fear
don't tell me what to do, it doesn't matter
I will no longer listen to you

You never had to hear what I had to say
you're the boss and wanted it in your own way
but you were wrong and now I'm gone
left with a mess of a life time
and you will soon fail again
how does that eagle look now my friend

I ask for forgiveness, please don't worry
it's over now, I've been set free
only God understands what's it's like to be me
am I crazy or am I sane
I march on, but what will it take
help me, please help me
I just want to ease the pain

A frigid night only mother nature can bring
looking for hope from anyone or anything
the needle finds the perfect place in my arm
the rush of the candy feels so warm
takes me back
to memories past
a happier time
things were wonderful and future bright
now just another lonely, drugged up night

I ask for forgiveness, please don't worry
it's over now, I've been set free
only God understands what's it's like to be me
am I crazy or am I sane
I march on, but what will it take
help me, please help me
I just want to ease the pain

Sitting in an empty room all alone
waiting for the text from a friend
or the ring of the celluar phone
I feel the cold blue steel pressed between my lips
the taste of gun powder so difficult to resist
finger on the trigger,
thinking bout the things I'm going to miss

I ask for forgiveness, please don't worry
it's over now, I've been set free
only God understands what's it's like to be me
am I crazy or am I sane
I march on, but what will it take
help me, please help me
I just want to ease the pain